The Great Silence
I am sure you have heard the news-everything is connected. Ya, ya…I know. However, in moments of Grace, that awareness is so awe inspiring and so beautifulI that I can barely find the words to even type this message. In hindsight, a series of events that do not seem at all connected take on new meaning, the connections only obvious with the purity of the new energy that presents itself.
Event 1: Breaking the negative dark night of the soul dream cycle in an obvious way:
Dionysus, God of wine and fertility, pays me a visit and seems to prefer orange sheets. He teases me that I am thinking too much when I start analyzing in the dream that he is here to help. I was also wondering why his hair was not darker as I prefer my sexy dream helpers to be the smoldering type (hmmmm…admittedly, there has been a bit of dry cycle for me during this dark night of the soul stuff).
And, yes, (believe it or not) I am still preoccupied in the dream that I need to get my business going…When I can laugh at myself, rather than beat myself up, I know I am more than half way there. The obvious lack in my life lately is the missing vitality. I am not someone that can live happily for long without a healthy dose of “Anima Mundi.” Yes, I am an introverted type of female Hermes. But I am a female Hermes that needs her “Anima Mundi.” Evidently, my dream guides agree. Message received, just in time for Spring.
Timing: three days before the Solar Eclipse on April 8, 2024
Event 2: Automatic talking session.
When I first was waking up spiritually it was like, all of a sudden, the trees could talk to me. Then in my imagination, the birds could too. Then there was the wind. My goodness I love the wind. The wind had messages for me too. I started automatic writing and automatic talking as a way to get out of my overly analytical mind.
Mythical features started talking to me too, in my automatic writing and in my automatic talking. Yoda was alive. The Old Crone was full of helpful wisdom (she liked to curve my back to look like Yoda, so I did wonder if they were a couple…). When I talked like Yoda, I sounded just like him. I had these signals. St Germain would teach me to dance in my automatic talking as he was tired of people only thinking of him as “the money guy.” Unicorns were real. Lion beings were my friends.
I had symbols to know the energies (although St Germain liked to tease me and pretend to be different energies. He called it “guess the energy game”).
Then all of a sudden, everything went dark. The talking to trees went silent. It was like being abandoned by God. With no wisdom from my nature spirit and mythical friends, my fears got more pronounced and the self doubt debilitating. I still practiced the automatic talking but it was like pulling teeth to get me to do it and the whole time I assumed I was just sputtering nonsense.
Unfortunately, this went on for years. Many dark nights followed, lots of endless shadow clearing. I once asked an intuitive why other people got to have a life without being perfect and her response was simply:
“It is your time. It is not something happening to you. It is happening for you.”
Then the other day, I tried my automatic talking again. I really did not want to, but I very much needed the missing wisdom and the lightness of being that used to come with this personal storytelling hour. My mother was the one who talked me into it again (evidently her devoid of “Anima Mundi” daughter has not been too pleasant to be around lately).
The Mother aspect of God came through in a way that felt like my heart was speaking with the words pouring from my mouth. It was an energy that felt like pure unconditional acceptance. It was like I could say and do anything and the love would still be there. You can’t understand that kind of love without experiencing it. Human love, even when well meaning, can’t touch this kind of love. at least not in my life so far.
She was speaking of her partner, the Father Aspect of God. “He is your Father and he loves you. He is not always very chatty. He is the great silence. He is the great pause. When you look for proof in the world in social media or in other ways as proof of his love, you will not find it. It is only now that you have emptied enough of the dark bits that got in the way that his light can shine for you, that you can receive him. Be grateful for the quietness now, even on social media. You are in the great silence, in the space between breaths.”
Timing: two days before the Solar Eclipse.
Event 3: A dreamless and quiet night. I actually slept.
I have not been sleeping very well. That has been true, unfortunately, for most of my life. However, I slept. I did not dream. I woke up refreshed. I was surprised as it was the morning of April 8th, the day of the Solar Eclipse. Lately, on these big energy days I do not sleep well and my dreams are often very dark, as if all the underworld beings empty out of their hole and terrorize me in my sleep. However, I woke up without dark circles under my eyes, feeling very energized. Now, I am sure you have heard all the stories about how the dark people are trying to hurt us and bad things are going to happen during the eclipse. I could not feel that. I would feel it if that kind of darkness were present. But it was not. I felt energized and full of hope for Spring. I felt more confident.
During the day, I went for a walk. I remember that feeling when I could feel that someone wanted to speak to me. I could feel St Germain’s energy. It is like loud thoughts that push to the front of my brain. He thoughts were simple but important for me. “You do not need advice as you have had the right ideas for years. You had them at the beginning of your journey. You just needed your mojo back. You needed to regain your faith. You need that feeling of hope, of deserving. It is a deserving you do not need to earn.”
During the actual Solar Eclipse, I was meditating. You are not going to believe it. The body movements were back. My head was swinging like the infinity 8 like it used to when I was first waking up. The St Germain dancing was back. My head moved straight up toward heaven which was my Christ energy signal. The Old Crone was back. My friend The Tree of life came for a visit. The Goddess said hello. I could feel them all.
The Creator comes in all kinds of amazing shapes and sizes. In losing this connection and then getting it back, I feel like one of the Jedi knights in Star Wars here to remind you to: “Let the Force be with you.”
And during the Eclipse, during the darkness with a sliver of light still present, the Force was with me, reminding me of its presence.
Timing: the day of the Solar Eclipse April 8, 2024
I hope you had your own beautiful Eclipse stories.
(Originally Published April 9, 2024..Last of my older blogs that I reposted from my internet break)
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